Twenty years ago I dreamed of friends in places we had been together laughing. I thought that everyone was there but someone was missing I didn’t know who it was just that he was missing. I thought I spied his shadow and ran up steps to look but no one was there and I had no explanation for my friends
just that someone was missing I don’t know who I thought I saw his shadow but now it’s disappeared.
A decade ago I dreamed of other friends in other places we had played together laughing and singing songs and everyone was there but someone was missing. I didn’t know who it was just that he was missing and I couldn’t find him. my elusive shadow man my dream-time lover. I ran into the garden thinking I heard his footsteps but no one was there and I was left with a vague yearning for someone I
did not know who he was just that I longed to find him.
Last night I dreamed of you and when I saw your face I knew beyond just knowing that you were my nameless shadow man the focus of countless dreams always just out of reach. and now I know who it was that I sought with outstretched arms and longing soul twenty years and a decade ago. but you and I have never been together laughing or playing or singing songs and you are still missing from my arms but now not from my heart. now I know who you are that you are real that I have finally found my missing friend.
And with that, a lingering conundrum unexplained phenomenon We’ve never met but I know you almost better than myself. We’ve never touched but your presence next to me is as real as the tree outside my window. We’ve never spoken but I hear your voice throughout the day. We’ve never kissed but I know the taste of your lips. You will always be my dream-time lover, my elusive shadow man.
It will happen one day, not tomorrow.
But tomorrow I will close my eyes and
I will embrace the dream not hold it off
With shaking tearful fears and doubts..
Welcoming – opening my arms,
my heart, accepting you into my soul.
And one day, not tomorrow
but one day before this earth
completes another journey ’round its sun
we will be together
To complete what began with teasing winks and tempting smiles
–years before –maybe-a hundred years before.
Was there ever a time
you were not known to my heart?
Overcome by powerful feelings,
Unspoken words, unanswered desires
needing hope to perform its alchemy
and turn bitter tears sweet.
With certainty that this feeling echoes and grows
rounded with common caring and desire
Mutual fears matched by shared hopes fuel growing passion.
Dreams are redefined with shape and substance to
mold the doubtful fantasy
Turning ephemeral whimsy
into fiercely wished for reality.
Using all remedy
and means of resource.
One day soon, in this lifetime.