The Lure of the Inevitable – Dedicated to my Muse

The Kiss - Rodin

The space changes.
The feelings swell and take on the shape of a cloud.
And like a cloud they stretch the seams and overwhelm.
They guide my day and rule my night
and as they grow they gain in power
and in purpose and in conviction.

Some things are just inevitable
cannot be thwarted
cannot be stopped
are immune to logic
and profoundly deaf
to pleas of reason.

It’s almost comical
How I struggle to rationalize these emotions
And to cloak them in the respectability of stand-ins for more acceptable thoughts
Not that the underlying history of pain exists in an unrelated realm
But that it stands on its own and heals in its own time
Existing…no, thriving.

Funny how some simple thoughts don’t make it to paper
Much more difficult than to tell you how you turn me on
And how I want to make non stop love with you for 24 hours straight
to f*** until our heads explode
And then again
And again.

I want to kiss every inch of you
and linger where my kisses bring you exquisite pleasure
savoring each moan evoked
by lips intent and eager
fulfill a promise made
let destiny unfold.

Pain Redux

It’s disturbing – difficult to believe
that some seek to injure themselves
Isn’t pain to be scrupulously avoided?
Even acted out on the screen – we carefully avert our eyes
And maybe even tremble a little.

I read that sensation cancels out sensation
That if you scratch your bug bite
that annoying itch backs down.
What can mitigate a broken heart?
I’d shed blood for some peace – if even for a few hours.

If I walked into the ocean
until the water washed away my tears
Does that mean there’d be no more?
The desperate measures that some are driven to
Now take on clarity.

As an habitual Pollyanna
my instincts take over
and lecture sternly to my desolate self
always believing that in the end
peace and kindness will prevail.

         The Spirit of the Goddess Minerva

A New Year – Almost Here

While the media is consumed with summing up 2012 with their top ten lists and fiscal cliff updates I’ve been doing much the same but looking a lot closer to home.

Don’t worry, I’m not going to post a list of resolutions or anything like that.  Just one insight into my personal struggle with procrastination.

For the past few days I’ve consciously tried to DO when I THINK of it; usual habit being to think – oh that would be good to do – then putting whatever ‘it’ is on the back burner,.

Here’s a concrete example.  I looked at this blog earlier today and considered my posting frustrations and general dissatisfaction with the functionality and look of it.  But this time I dove in, changed the theme, tweaked some other things like color and felt great satisfaction with the outcome.

So I dug up a poem written many months ago and somehow forgot to post. I brushed it up some and Tada – it is now posted on my rejuvenated blog!

Have a very Happy Healthy and Prosperous New Year my dear readers!!

Thanks for all your visits, likes and comments in 2012.


Autumn Memories and Magical Threads

Along the Rhine – October 2012

The magic continues
The spinner weaves a fragile thread
Taken to tangles and knots
Requiring a gentle patient touch.

We are connected by a magical thread.
Sometimes the filament frays –
when confusion clouds the perception of action or inaction.
Tenuous attachments attract uncertainty.

Fantasy, illusion, dreams – all is good –
Reality is often hard pressed to keep pace with the mind’s alternative universe.
Especially when that universe is shared
with the embodiment of remembered yearning.

A vivid memory of crisp breezes carrying wispy scent of hearth and embers.
Dusk falling rapidly as I briskly walked the few blocks home –
dodging puddles and reveling – charging through piles of crunchy maple leaves
randomly adorning the sidewalk.

Utter joy with the sensory symphony –
for the moment tenuously overriding
the swell of angst rising from my depths.
A nameless yearning. Strong sense of something missing.

Feeling such a longing to reach out and touch
the someone who was striving to do the same from parts unknown.
Continuing my walk home and
turning my thoughts to the evening’s plan.

Yet, down deep inside knowing that the longing would continue,
the vague sense of disquiet would go unappeased.
Until the shadows took on form emerging from the hidden realm
and the wonder of recognition became reality.