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Writing While Happy
Why do words get put on paper at moments of despair?
When it’s a race between the ink and the tears
to transfer their essence to the page?
Aren’t the giddy moments to be memorialized?
Isn’t delight worthy of choice phrases?
True elation – a moment in time
when your heart could burst and spill the joy
as far as the edges of your universe.
Fragments of time to be savored
And later reviewed with fresh pleasure.
With deepest meaning of their own
and needing no embellishment
to sparkle in the gloom of winter
to keep you company with warmth engendered
from treasured artifacts.
Happiness is not simply the absence of pain
It is a balance of accepting what is
while maintaining a tenuous grip on what could be
of comfort in your true persona
of knowing how to love.
And when, combined with long awaited
declarations and promise of new directions
your heart gets to that bursting point
Catharsis is as close as a pen or keyboard
expression venting the swell of feeling.
Preferable to indiscriminate disclosure
The wrong word in the wrong ear
Longer lasting reminder of
an exquisite moment,
part of your special history.
Do You Ever?
Do you ever feel that peculiar tightness in your throat making you think of suffocation making you catch your breath and all the while the stinging starts behind your eyes and you think damn it not again I’m so sick of crying? Do you ever? Cause I do.
Do you ever feel wetness on your cheeks as you’re driving downtown listening to your ipod playing that song you know you could turn it off but you don’t ‘cause even as the tears fall the pain you feel right now just might be the last time you feel it? Yeah I thought you might. ‘cause I do
Do you ever hold my photo and run your finger over where my cheek meets my lips then you close your eyes and the unbearable weight of reality hits you full in the chest and takes your breath away and a sob escapes and you shake your head and yell at yourself stop it now? You can admit it if that happens to you ‘cause it happens to me every time and like the ipod no one makes me go there but I do there is no force strong enough to stop me and if there exists such a power please help me.
Please numb my senses for at least one day of peace calm no tears no pain if I can’t hear that love song if I can’t see your beautiful face if my breath remains steady and the tears don’t flow just one day of peace .
Do You Ever?
The Spirit of the Goddess 