Frosty winter sky
Violet streaks carousing
Wind chill factor down.
how can i explain
what you do not want to hear?
This hurt is so deep
not of my body
but in my heart and soul
this is a mortal blow
and will never heal
the ultimate rejection
and my heart is weeping a million tears of grief
and my soul is in pieces scattered across the sky
Since our first hellos, eager yet tentative,
through the dizzying events of recent months,
we have navigated our paths;
so far apart yet so close
and always hoping for more.
The caring deepened; the fire burned low.
Frustrations sometimes led to words and actions
regretted, eventually repaired.
The attachment, ever stronger.
drawing us back.
Each day I feel a little closer
and want you just that much more.
Oh how I ache for your touch
and your reality in front of me;
to be alone and together.
I lust for your body pressing hard against mine.
I want to taste you, to tease you with my eager tongue
and thrill to your response
as you grow and throb between my lips.
I want to memorize the feel of you
as you enter my body for the first time
I want to make you quiver with desire
and as your passion builds and peaks
I want to hear you call my name
and hold me like you’ll never let me go
© May 2014
The Spirit of the Goddess
an image is burned in my mind
you, standing at the foot of my bed
your cheshire cat grin
my fingers itchy
eyes open eyes shut
you hold your ground
passion set aside
If it Happens in Cyberspace, Is it Real ???
If you had asked ‘before’
Do you believe a deep connection
can be formed in cyberspace?
Feeling real and right and strong?
No – of course not
How could it be?
When all you have seen of your love is the most external shell
And that only with electronic assistance
Dig a little deeper
Past the bullshit layer
And through to the hidden well of the essential self
Casting off illusory vestiges
The happenings begun that winter
proved me wrong forever
I already knew the answer
But didn’t know what I knew
I didn’t have a clue
This was all too new
to understand it was true.
….I absorbed his totality
Unimpeded by banality of electronic gadgetry
Layers merging instantly to reveal
This entity who threatened my complacency
And shook my world entirely.
I retreated prematurely
I pretended immunity
to this man that I suspected
possessed potent irresistibility
And when heart caught up to head
It was too late by far
Too many miles, two different worlds
two special people off stage waiting.
But the end was the beginning
of this cyberspace adventure
Of this bipolar dream
Of ecstasy and despair
Hope and hopelessness
Plans made, plans discarded
Hearts and dreams shredded
love and lust prevailing.
(c) the Spirit of the Goddess